it's 3a.m....we had supper after a meeting for a centenary dinner...
everyone go to their own cars and we start out engine..
i am the one parked nearest to the shop..
so i am the 1st to drive off to home..(VROOOMM)
feeling like i am Michael Schumacher is leading in a race...
it's windy and breezing night so i got my windows down..
one hand was on the steering and the other was by the window...(like jay chou in Initial D)
just lightly on the pedal, enjoying the ride and feel the wind...*waht a night*
it's a one way road, while i am turning at the junction, something happen..
i can see a dim light and it goes brighter and brighter and it was like there's a car coming from the other direction..
but i am just thinking it's a one way road..no way there's someone is coming in different direction...so i keep on going...
a blue Proton Wira (car) moving with a 80km/h speed (guessing)...
[like the real Initial D] having the left corner with a high speed and had a head butt on my "Buddd's" nose...the GETZ logo...
u know where the logo in the front of each car...??that's where they hit...RIGHT on the spot and BAMM!!!
the whole thing happened like in 3 second from i see the light till i BAMM...
3 people, me and the 2 passenger in the other are staring each other and numb...
they start moving and goes reverse and and i thought we are going to have a talk but they just went off ....like trying to run away...
i can smell some burning smell from my Getz and like 'he' is having a cigarette...it just smells like something burning and it's HORRIBLE...
i turn my car around and chase after that car....
my friends all pass my by and some of then still put the "HIGH LIGHTS" on and wave goodbye to me...
no one sees a big dent in the middle cause both lights are still on...(NOT BROKEN)
i step on my pedal as hard as i can but the car is like people that had too much cigarettes...they just have no energy...
they just go....VROOOMMM...like the rabbit and the turtle in a race....
and me and my smoke "buddy" crawl back home slowly...
hands were shaking...
i park my car and sit in front of my car at look at it...
it's like looking at my buddy that is about to die...(lungs cancer i think)slightly tears dropped
and there it goes...
the next day my "buddy" is done...it won't start anymore...
then it's been towed to the "Hospital" to get fixed...

it happen again...the 2nd accident in my life...
another BAMM!!but this time is not my "buddy"
it's some else 's "buddy"...
still feels bad cause it's SOMEONE ELSES assets..
i'll feel better if it's mine...
so people..you better watch out while u're driving next time...
merry X'mas..
and drive safe..

GBu.

hi everyone...long time since i blog...
anyway, i got a good day today...wake up early and go work ON TIME!!
as my boss were upset with me cause i were late 20minutes...
haix....i would've wake up and stayed up that day...i still regret i am went back to sleep though...
so...i go work and he is not that CHEERUL anymore like he used to be,
just a HI and then we both continue to work...
that's 1 not really happy people.
before this person is not happy, sissy were not happy too...
cause she's on her period i think...PMS...
that's 2nd not happy person..
then the 3rd not really happy person came...
she's my "mom"(my colleague at work)...
she just came in with a grumpy moody and start pissed off when something goes wrong...
not really sure and not dare to ask what happened because you don't ask "mummy" things when they are in a really bad mood cause you'll just end up being scold.
last but not least, the weather....it was really sunny today, then it goes raining after my dinner with sister and friends. i am with my bike and i have to ride in the rain..|||
anyway, i am struggling today...was a almost going to step in the grumpy mood too but you know when someone you care goes to the grouchy mood and you just need to be the opposite side so you don't "crash".
hope everyone will be better mood tomorrow and stay happy!!
*smile* (Korean style)

peace people,
GBu all,

-Luke-

hi people......*big waving*...Haaaa CHEW!!
it's kinda dusty in here..hahaha...long time didn't blog..too busy lately...
it's raining so didn't go anywhere...did all my readings and got some spare time for my blog...hehehe...
nothing special today...got a new uniform today!!very comfortable and i look good in it!!will share it when i got a pic!!^^
and i got no free food today...hahaha...paid $11 for a chicken rice for i get it for free normally..hahahaha...but never mind...just mumbling...

SO...what has God done for you lately.
for non-Christians maybe you'll think that "hmm..i did everything myself and God did nothing" or "i just follow the FENG SHUI so i got all these luck!!" or...one more they might say" there's no God"
but as a Christian like me, i always think that there's no coincidence but everything is already "SET" by God.it's all in His plan.
guys, take a moment and reflect what on the last good thing that has happened in your life. when was it and why would you define it as good?
how long does it take you to think of something good? it is a simple question but for many people, it can be difficult to answer. Humans have a relatively short memory, especially when it comes to the good that happens in our life.

so often we often focus all our attention on the problems of our life, without taking the time to remember any of the good that happened in and through our lives. we remember all of our hardships and troubles, but we are quick to forget all the good that God has done in our lives.
all good things have their source in God, and Psalm 126:3 boldly tells is," The LORD has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy." Note the tense of the verse. God has ALREADY done good things in our lives. He gives us air to breathe and another day to rejoice in His glory. He gives us the desire of our hearts, and He make His presence known in our lives.

It is God's desire to be glorified in our lives and when we dwell in His Spirit, we see his character revealed to us. Take another moment to reflect on what God has done for you lately. What does it reveal about Him?

AGAIN for non-christian, while you are thinking the good things, think more into it, it's not lucky, or feng shui or bla bla bla.. that's God!! as the bible says
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."(Jeremiah 29:11 )^^

GBu people...
night.

hello everyone...today i got a very interesting topic to share to everyone.
went to a leadership course on Saturday!!had a busy weekend so today i would like to share this.
i just realize this is something that everyone should know and learn to be a leader.(especially guys)
be a leader...for sure everyone will think leader must be a really smart guy, or talented like Steve Jobs, John C.Maxwell.......but that's a NO~~ no no no....
every man is a leader.maybe they are not some big bosses to lead the company,or manager but one day they have to be someone's dad and lead the family.that's one of a leader too!!

as a leader, you need to always need to update and upgrade yourself by learning EVERYTHING you can. the more the better.of course something good to be a good leader. later on, you will be good at problem solving with all the experience and knowledge you got. when your people got problems they need someone that knowledgeable to teach them and lead them to the right path. that's why a leader need to be ready at all time.

just imagine one day when your son ask you something and you can't answer but when he ask uncle A(someone else) and he can answer really well. if this keep on going on do you think your son will obey you or uncle A when they grow up? it'll be uncle A cause uncle A leads him and grows!

in the same time, leaders need to have a vision and the leader need to have a picture in the future. when they got the picture, they know what to do to achieve it. if a leader don't have any vision, it's like a bus driver that brings his passengers and don't know where to go. the driver just drive around and go NOwhere!! and they will end up ZERO~!

leaders need to be integrity.that is to be honest and didn't hide anything.so people will follow the leader.leaders also need to be prioritized.leaders need to do know and do the important ones.so his people don waste time doing those unimportant things.

something more to write but i need a little bit more time.it's kinda late and i need my rest!!><
before i finish chapter 1,got one story for you people.

when you go into your kitchen, you see many knives on the shelf. there's some really sharp ones and some is kinda old and blunt. and then u walk to the fridge and bring out an apple and you wanna cut it into pieces. which knife u will choose?
of course the sharp ones but what if there are only blunt ones. what can you do?

answer: you need to sharpen the knife before you cut the apple.
maybe you are still blunt and cannot be a leader.
you just need to be sharpen to become one.^^

GB!!!!

good morning people!!!
watched movie yesterday morning(Thursday).
entitle "one day"
very good weather, sunny day!!
ready up my excited and sad feelings in the cinema
cause the trailer is really good sad story!!
but it end up not really good...
cause the girl died!!!

u know what is the interesting part??
not the movie but the cinema cause there's only me and another old lady in the cinema.><
it's like in one of the scary movie, an old lady with white face sitting alone in the BACk row with the spot light shines on her....CREEPY!!
anyway...im ok still typing here..
it means she's a normal human being...
too tired to write more...night guys!!
GBu

I rarely have a bad day. A tiring day, yes, a boring day, yes, but not bad. I don't know how to describe a bad day; sometimes even if I hurt myself accidentally, I won't call it a bad day. It's just gonna be: OUCH!! :p

The worst day I've ever had was when I had to end my recent relationship. It hurts (unlike Hell, cos of course, Hell is worse) so bad and I never ever ever ever want to feel that kind of feeling again ever. But even then, now that day seemed to be so far away. I know it was hurt, but I can't quite recall the exact feeling. Maybe because I don't want to. Maybe because I'm strong enough. Or maybe because I've moved on.

I think it's a bit of everything in my case. And the distance does help, it's easier to just shut down your thoughts about something that might hurt you. Anyway, my point is, when you have a 'not very good day' well then try making it a GOOD day. Don't sit around and drowns in your sadness and misery. Sure, I've been there and sometimes it just feels so good to let it all out. But one or two days is enough. No more.

God doesn't want you to become too attach to your past. Neither your family and friends. Whatever it was that happened in the past, or at this moment, have faith that tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow is always going to be a better day. And if you think you're not strong enough, then seek for help, whether it's from God or friends. Don't just keep it to yourself.

The most important thing is to keep being positive. The challenge that I face with my broken heart is knowing I won't be with that someone that I love. Knowing he will find someone else and love her just breaks my heart even more and it makes me sad. But you know what? It would make me even sadder if he never find someone else. Because sometimes just because you have the same destination, doesn't mean you have to go with that person through the same path. Sometimes you have your own path, and he has his own too. And in the middle of it, somehow, finally, you'll find a person who can accompany you through that path.

You might think: I don't want another person, I want just this one person, this is the love of my life and so on. But the truth is, you don't really know it's for sure. That's the truth. We stumble upon people who we thought we love, and until that last person came, we always thought the love we had before is the 'real' one.

But it doesn't mean what you had all this time is not real. It was real. It is real. But it's not meant to be.

So, when your day is not a very good day, put on your favorite tv show, eat your favorite food, have ice creams, go to gym, meet some friends, have some fun! Go out! Do something new!! Just don't let your past ruin your moment.

I'm moving out of my bad days. I hope you are too..

hello everyone!!!*waving like a queen*
hahaha...things just flash through my mind again....
just wanna share these song...
The 88 - No one here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNeETStJek0&feature=related
this version is much much better.

Katy Perry- The one that got away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9q-8rvz3LDk&feature=share
and this one.hope there's a MTV for this!!

Pray for me..
cause devil is trying to make me down.
GB u all!!!

today is a super tired day!!
wake up really early and finished everything really late...
got gym got work got school got 2 farewell dinner and 1 birthday party...hahaha..
anyway...while on the way back home after gym...
something happened!!!

there's some mucus in my mouth!!
(disgusting isn't it??)
doesn't feeling so well lately...
might cause of everyone around me is sick.
anyway...i am wondering if u guys is in my situation..what will you do??

-normally people just spit it on the floor.
[my teacher (high school) told me if u spit on the floor and when it dries up, it'll become small particle and spread the virus through the wind.]

-some of them put it in a piece of tissue and throw it in a bin.
[too bad i don't have tissue at the moment]

-swallow it back to your body.
[what i found out from Mr.Google,only a small part of the mucus goes down into the stomach where it gets dissolved. The majority of the mucus gets stuck.]

wanna know what i did just now??
i swallow it...^^
eww...disgusting isn't it??
cause i rather harm myself but not others.
especially my friends, brothers and sisters in Christ, families,
my loved ones.

so if u don have tissue with you in that situation, what will you do??
*sniff*
GB everyone.
and good night.

before i sleep...go check out this website to prevent you to have mucus.^^
http://www.wikihow.com/Get-Rid-of-Mucus
stay healthy guys.

YAWN........don normally blog in the morning...
but i was about to blog this last night but i was really sleepy.
so.........yawn....
today i got a story to tell..something comes to me that i have to share this to everyone!!
it's a story about the Mr.Joseph and the EARPHONES!!

Mr.Joseph is a successful designer and he likes to listen to music.especially JAzz...
One day, he went shopping in the mall and as usual he went into an electronic shop.
while his children were shopping for some computer's gadget, he went to the earphones sections.
and he tried each and every earphones that they got.but he realize they are all just normal earphones and similar with his .
after a while, his children done the shopping in that shop and when he was about to go out,
the salesman by the counter called him and offer him the Best Earphone with a special price,
$350 .and the salesman added u won't find this earphone for this price in the other shop.
it's only for you!!
Mr.Joseph said "it's ok" to the salesman but the salesman keep holding him
and wants him to try on the earphones and in the end he tried it.

it was soul lifting!!(good sounding)
he can clearly listen to every instrument and the beatz and everything is perfect!!
as the price is very expensive so he thinks for a while.
in the end, he bought the earphones.
with delightful feelings he put on his new earphones while on the way to work everyday.

after a few days, he realize the new earphones have no much difference with the previous ones.
the sounding is similar and it's normal.
he regretted he spend $350 for the earphones.
so he went home and try the old earphones on and realize the new earphones are actually better.
a few days later, he realize the same thing again so he went home and try the old earphones on and realize the new earphones are actually better.

hi peeps!!it's been some time i didn't update myself!!hahaha...
nothing much change actually...going back to my old routine...
work school and gym....hahahaha....
but something need to be changed...lol...
i'm trying to go gym early in the morning before i go work....
so i got some more spare time to do something else at night..
and i sleep earlier and i can wake up earlier then i go gym....
that's my new plan....sounds like a better routine and it's an effective one...
hope it works!!
just need to stand up and WALK again...
it's been a long time i am stop the routine...since 3 months ago...
fats' been growing all around me...
need stay FIRM!!!have to work really hard on it!!

anyway...the reason i put the title i changed?? is ....
one of my best friend send me a Facebook message telling me he read my blog and tells me that i've changed...
and i think about it....hmmm....what's changing in me??
-was reborn and being a Junior Christ.that's 1 changes.
-knowing what i am going to do now...(has a plan) that's 2
-has been drinking lately.that's 3

that's 3 things i can asnwer if u ask me that question.
at least now i got someOne(Jesus Christ) to depend on....
i can walk through my thorny path with Him guiding me.
it's not an easy road but He will guide me to a bright side..^^

GBu my friend...
i miss you.

wonderful day today!!hahaha...
it's school holiday so it's kind of busy in the museum.
many kids running around in the gift shops.
parents keep on stopping their children hands from touching the toys.
it's something like this....
mom: "if you touch it i will slap your hand."
boy: "yes mom"

and some of the older ones will goes like this.
boy: " NO YOU WON'T!!"
hahahhaa....that's kids in aussie!!

some of the familly goes like this.
boy: " mom, can i get this chocolates please."
girls: " mom, look at this so cute.can i get those?"
mom: " NO!! "
boys and girls: " but you got my money.......*with that sad faces* i wish i got money"

many stocks came in this morning. so i am really busy today.
anyway. the highlights of the day!!

a litttle 3 years old boy run into the shops and look at the "tic-tac-toe" toy and goes to her mom and say "this is coooooooL mummy"
then he saw mermaids hanging on the rack.
then he run there and hold the mermaid and tell his mom "mom........i like girls!!"
hahahaha....very funny!!!

after work go school and then got a meeting about the retreat this coming Friday.
trying to finalize everything.
anyway.it is a very interesting day today!!

night peeps.
GB

didn't really see u writing lately.

hello peeps...still checking up my blog???hahahaha...
being quite busy lately...and also busying for the coming retreat!!
hahahaha...and tired all day...yawn....still tired now..hahaha...
and also...i am writing a diary now..not everyday but just some special day.
so many things make me kinda didn't blog anymore.
anyway...today's weather is fabulous!!hahhaa...
thought it will be heavy downpour like Sunday it end up Sunny...
hahaha...with some cool wind!! that's the perfect weather.
so...after work, a friend called me and tell me there's a SALES!!!
so i went shopping!!hehehe...and bought a superdry jeans.50% off!!
after that go school and got assignment to do...
it's actually last semester's work....but it's done now.

alright...heading to bed!!
got something interesting but im too tired to write!!
will do it tomorrow...^^no one will read it tonight anyway..hahaha...
Good Night everyone..
GBu

hello peeps!!hmm...did you guys know i went to Taipei,Taiwan a few weeks ago??
for those who check out my facebook should know.
hmm...before i go there. Taiwan is all about food, 'pinang' girls, night markets and nice club!!
i bet u guys don't know what is 'pinang' girls. they are those pretty and sexy girls selling pinang(a kinda of plum that when u eat it your teeth turns brownish yellow color) by the road sides.
and the food...saw them since i am young from the TV show and they introduce those food is like food from heaven.
night markets....SHOPPING of course...and club...hear it from my friend.

anyway...it turns up like this.
food was good...but not what i expected.it's just SO SO for me...Malaysian food is best so far..hahaha...

'pinang' girls..NON...my friend told me all 'pinang' girls had been banished in Taipei from the government a few years ago but beside Taipei there's still 'pinang' girls...too bad we just hang around taipei.

Clubs...too tired everyday and we don't have enough time for clubs.
the best part of this trip is the shopping part!!night markets...things were cheap,nice and ........
wait for it....
AWESOME..!!
hahaha....

and we went to some rock visiting, some history places...
not really interested in those place but if you want to tell people you're in Taiwan.
you need to go there and have some pictures as a prove!!hahahaha....
that's my Taiwan trip!!
hmm...i think i talk a bit too much about the 'pinang' girls...
it's just something u can't really find in other country...so i am quite curious about it..
hahahaha....
that's all guys...NIGHT!!
GBu.

We men have
become very adept at covering up our pain. We tend to cover our fear and
hurt
with Sunday smiles, nice suits, firm handshakes and sometimes lies. One of the
things that cause us great pain is broken relationship. One reason they are so
painful and so crippling is that no one has ever showed us how to fix a
fractured relationship. It may even have been something devastating, such as rejection,
divorce, or you may have good friends you don’t talk to anymore.
Painful past
come in all shapes and sizes and degrees of intensity. In some case, the
person
who has been the focus of our pain isn’t even around anymore. It’s too late to
say you’re sorry, or to hear those healing words from other person’s lips.
Going
Somewhere with God
We tend to let
past failures keep us from trying again. But once we committed to the Lord,we
have His power available to help us move forward instead of looking back. He is
very aware what ever your situation may be. He knows when things go wrong in
your relationship. You need to focus on Someone who is there to help you.
Regardless
of what happened yesterday, if you stick with the Lord today, your yesterday
doesn’t
have to control your tomorrow. If you are still thinking about the people
who
caused your problem, you are focusing on the wrong thing. I know this might be
difficult to forgive someone who hurt you really bad.
Sometimes
God must lead you downhill to take you uphill. He must take you to the bottom
in order to get you to the top. The problem comes when we’re at the bottom,
because we tend to assume that it’s the end of the trip. But when the Lord is
with you, something is going to happen. God knows where He’s taking you. And
He
knows the lessons you need to know in order to be equipped when you get
there.
Seeking God’s Greater Purpose
When all things seems to be against you, it may be becauseyour vision is
obscured by the past. When you look at your situation from a heavenly
perspective, all these things may be for you. They just haven’t been put
together yet. You say” My life is a lemon.” Oh, but God can make lemonade.
He
can take a messed-up scenario and totally transform it if His sovereignty is
allowed to work in your life.
Breaking the
power of the past and making the most of the present
“A few years ago an old lamp in a house fell
and broke. It was pretty bad shape, but the owner liked that old lamp, so the
owner got out the Super Glue and went to work. The owner fit the pieces back
together, let the glue dry and put that lamp back on the stand. In fact you
saw
this lamp you would never know it was once broken. The owner knows it, the
glue
worked and the lamp is still giving light”

You may have
a broken past, cracked by an uncaring father, jealous friends, or a careless
mate. But if you bring that cracked vessel to Jesus and let the Holy Spirit
do
the “glue thing” He can put your life together where only you will know it was
ever cracked. And you may forget it was once cracked because your light is
still shining. That’s what God can do. Because of Him you can bring light to
others.

GB everyone.

第一次你陪我坐著
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些簡訊聲你努力藏著
害怕我難過


不追問到底為什麼
是我最後的溫柔
想笑著附和說分開是好的
但我們卻怎麼 一起哭了


我捨不得 可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得 只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的



我捨不得 最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的 錯了就錯了
不用擔心我 愛你了


不追問到底為什麼 是我最後的溫柔
想笑著附和說分開是好的
但我們卻怎麼 一起哭了


我捨不得 可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得 只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的


我捨不得 最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的 錯了就錯了
不用擔心我 我愛你了


至少你記憶裡的我
是微笑的
親愛的 有你牽著我的那些日子
真的好快樂


我捨不得 可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得
只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的


我捨不得
最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的 錯了就錯了
不用擔心我 我走了

as everyone know!!!i went back to Malaysia on the 24th Sept 2010...
the main reason is to go to my eldest brother's wedding!!
it's a happy thing cause it's the 1st wedding in our family!!
i thought is will be a GRAND wedding...like my parents will really spent time doing everything..
relatives will come from overseas and everyone will gather and having fun!!
things were really well planned as my brother were always the leader (in the Brothers and sister group)... he is the one always start something new and we the younger one will just follow..
whooohoooo....it sounds really GREAT eyyy!!

for your information.... in my family...no one really celebrate anything....even birthday,mother and father's day....NAH!!!cause my parents were too busy working all the time...siblings were always away...that's why!!

but things just went totally different from what i expected!!
1st: my parents didn't show up on the day my brother and his wife sign the wedding thingy...the "contract"??...don really know what is it but i know is one of the important thing and normally families will show up on that day!!
another thing is my mom always complaint it's too troublesome to do a wedding so she is like requesting we(me and my elder brother) make it as simple as possible...><

2nd: my brother is really an UN-well planned guy...brides' and grooms' mate is not really doing what they suppose to do and do u see brides' and grooms' mates leave early on the wedding day??they suppose to help the groom and the brides until the end of the wedding.. hahaha...stupid eyy...but my brother is like whatever!!!
another thing is we actually got a lot unexpected guest coming on the wedding dinner..><
anyway...i am happy cause i see many many old friends...not mine...my parents' old friend...
those that used to carry me when i am a baby, buy me food when i am still a kid, the dancing group and many many many... everyone said i grown up, handsome... and one more thing i have to mention...they said i look like Korean Star!!!! whoohooo!!!
so if u see me on the wedding dinner, i am always walking around and 'GAN BEI" with people..or we call it 'yam seng'!!hahahaha...

that's the wedding!!hahaha.....
i'll keep on update guys!!!

GB...^^

hello reader!!!
long time since i last update my blog...
guess you guys wont check it up so often i think...
anyway!!!i got some great stories!!(summarize)
just a ring a ding dong...to let u guys check up my blog!!
catch up with you guys later!!!^^

GB.

i am very tired...
wanted to have a rest but time is too short...><
need more time actually...
many people need to meet up....
i want to have my blackberry work!!so i can use it...
so i can get connect to others too ....
what's happening to everyone....

woke up this morning...
mom is the one that shake me up!!hahaha...
and then she start her '''lecture'''
things i dislike the most...
angry and sad...
it's like what happen to my mom??
too old??or there's something wrong in her mind??
she's like pressuring herself too much!!
think too much...
and she is saying something hurtful....
to everyone close to her...like her family....
should i bring her to a doctor??
just doesn't want to see her become worse!!
*worried*

my dad....see-ing him getting old....
and i can see that he is not really happy
cause my mom keep on complaining all the time..
is daddy still will be the patient ones and take every complaint??
i can see he is like giving her the "go away" look...
daddy feels sick as well??
really want to know what's going on in daddy's mind??
hope he don't keep everything and explode one day...

granny....of course she is old...but still with a very cute look..
but she's the tricky one..
as we know...old people always got "something" with them..
like diabetes, heart problem, high blood pressure, sore leg.....
my granny got all of those i list..
mainly is cause she don't really control her food...
and don really remember which medicine she should take...
she used to eat like whatever medicine she sees....
another thing is she like to eat junk food and something sweet...
without letting you know!!
she's like a mouse in our house....
she eats everything that we put on the table and when you ask..
she says :" i didn't eat those...i don like those junk food."
it's like so obvious she's the only one there...
one more thing is she'll wake up in the middle of the night...
goes to the kitchen and look for food....
*sigh*
and the strangest thing is every time we ask her to eat something...
she'll say :" No...i'm not hungry"
what happen to these people!!!

me....every night before i sleep...
things goes turning around my mind...
it doesn't feel good at all..
like now...
the eyes will just turn watery...

*singing*
"It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time"

i was 2 busy days!!meet a lot of friends and families....
and a lot of laughter!!
it was fun...^^
i am like eating like more then 6 meals in a day!!
and all those food is....
*shake head*
bad bad food!!
i'll be the second ivan(a friend that gain A LOT of weight)...i think...
and and and....feeling my throat is not going well ....><
and my skin as well...i think is allergic to seafood (from Malaysia)
so...red dot is appearing on my hand.
and as usual...a lot of mosquito...
*weee weee weeee*
keep on kissing my leg.....
so itchy!!!arrggghhhh!!!

one thing i don really like about meeting people is......
people keep on asking about my 'Girlfriend'
dont they check FACEBOOK....
DUH!!!!
update yourself please...
night...
GBu...
today is Sunday...it'll be a good daY!!

back to my home town!!
it was raining...
very small though...
meet some 2 friends in the flight!!hahaha...
the world is so small...
one is my primary classmate!
didnt see each other for like 8 years!!
she sitting in front of me...
taking picture of herself the whole journey...||
another is one of my friend's ex-girlfriend.

and then..i meet my parents after 1hour and 5 minutes flight....
a white hair man,folded arms,standing by the gate waiting...
that's my dad...and i notice he got a new pairs of glasses!!
very nice!!it's from my da shao!!
my mom was waiting in the car as it was raining...
very skinny....and old....with her NEW curly hair...
typically an old lady style...><
she said she just did it and cost her 300++
and i told her...it is not good at all(it doesn't fit me)!!
in a good way of course...
am i too rude in a good way....??
but i just being honest!!

almost forgot...my granma is with my parents too....
a little bit forgetful women....
asking who is my sister...
but in the end, she does remember who is she ...
we had supper with my parents
then i meet up with some friends and my dad's shop too..
then here i am....writing blog after my nice and cool shower....

*another day....no blog...i thought we promised....:(imy*

it's kinda late now...
got to go bed as tomorrow i need to help out in my dad's shop!!!
night guys....
GBU...
sweet dreams...

sleep at 2 last night...
wake up at 7 this morning...(9am Sydney time)
to pee....and when i went back to bed,my body is like saying...
'ready yo ROCK AND ROLL'
i cant get back to sleep anymore...
i think is my auto alarm...
cause normally i wake up around this time...
do some exercise!!so i look pump when i see my family later...^^
went breakfast...YAM CHA!!!
got egg tart,seow mai, chicken feet, pork ribs, pork bun and many many...
hehehehe...NICE!!!

then go home have some laugh!!
*watching Running man.*
then go for lunch...sushi!!
it was a long Queue but it wasn't as good as those in Sydney.
then we had some Baskin Robin..
strawberry cheesecake ice c ream..
her favourite!!
then i meet up with my sister then we go airport!!!
FLYING TO MY REAL HOME!!!
the city of Paddy!!
Kedah, Alor Setar.^^

hello....u know what!!
IM HOT!!!!
and SO WET!!!
i can barely breath!!
Aaaaahhhhhhh
Malaysia is so hot!!!
that's one of the reason i don like here...
hahahaha...

it was a lovely morning...
it was quite a rush but everything seems fine...
still catch the slight in time...
and we were the last 2 passenger to go into the plane...><
it was a good RUN!!!hahahaha...
and also....
left my phone in Siska's car...
luckily she came back for me..
thanks Sissy...oo
now....meet my friends...
ate bak kut teh!!!(herbal pork soup)
and also "snowflakes"(shredded ice with taro balls,pearls and herbal jelly [sydney's meetfresh])
CHIT CHAT...everyone seems fine...
but everyone is like saying i get skinnier...

aaaaaa....
one more thing i wanna say....
my blackberry is like not working...><
i don't know why...
will fixed it when i go back to my hometown...^^
hmmm...
was thinking...is everyone alright there??
missing me already??hahaha...
i do miss them a lot...already...:(

*3rd day no blog...is it because if the movie thingy again??
i thought u're gonnaa blog everyday...><*

anyway...i'll have my shower then go bed!!!
tomorrow will be a great day!!
night guys...
GBU!!!

was about to blog like 5 hours ago(before i go to bed)
but the server was down...can't online...that's y...
wake up and check your blog...u've been lazy too..
40 chapter in 40 days plan about the book...
*FAILED*
maybe is because of the "running man"
hahahhaa...
anyway...been busy last 2 days before i go back to Malaysia for my brother's wedding.
cause everything is left to the last minute.
'flying' around in the city getting stuff...for everyone...
so it's kinda tiring.

OKAY.........
to be honest, i don't know how i am feeling now...
can't wait to see everyone, my friends and family..
but in the same time, it's the last time i see my friend......
well....we'll see each other one day
but who know that's when...
6 month??maybe 1 year??maybe no..
anyway, you'll still see my happy smile hanging on my face...^^
aww...i'll miss her smiley eyes...

heeeeee saaaaaaaaa *yoga*
i have to clear my mind!!!
hahahaha....
talk to God..so He'll heal...
hahahaha...

back to the topic..
i think i'll have a new life when i get back in Sydney..
start from 0 again..
start planning
start working
start saving
start to learn something new..
start school
i know i was like saying this every time i went back to Malaysia
but it's just a nothing happen..hahahah...
this time!!i will do it!!

aaaaaaaa!!!!!cant wait to see my parents and brothers!!
hope they'll not complain i am skinny...
especially my mom....complaining all the time..
hope my sister wont be blame....
cause my mom always did that to my sister..><

anyway...got to keep my laptop in the bag...
until i reach malaysia...i'll keep on continuing to blog...
see you ...
i love you..^^
GB

上課鈴響了，孩子們跑進教室，這節課老師要講的是《灰姑娘》的故事。

老師先請一個孩子上臺給同學講一講這個故事。

孩子很快講完了，老師對他表示了感謝，然後開始向全班提問。

老師：你們喜歡故事裏面的哪一個？不喜歡哪一個？為什麼？

學生：喜歡辛黛瑞拉（灰姑娘），還有王子，不喜歡她的後媽和後媽帶來的姐姐。
　　　辛黛瑞拉善良、可愛、漂亮。後媽和姐姐對辛黛瑞拉不好。

老師：如果在午夜12點的時候，辛黛瑞拉沒有來得及跳上她的南瓜馬車，你們想一想，可能會出現什麼情況？

學生：辛黛瑞拉會變成原來髒髒的樣子，穿著破舊的衣服。哎呀，那就慘啦。

老師：所以，你們一定要做一個守時的人，不然就可能給自己帶來麻煩。
另外，你們看，你們每個人平時都打扮得漂漂亮亮的，千萬不要突然邋裏邋遢地出現在別人面前，不然你們的朋友要嚇著了。女孩子們，你們更要注意，將來你們長大和男孩子約會，要是你不注意，被你的男朋友看到你很難看的樣子，他們可能就嚇昏了（老師做昏倒狀，全班大笑）。

好，下一個問題：如果你是辛黛瑞拉的後媽，你會不會阻止辛黛瑞拉去參加王子的舞會？你們一定要誠實喲！

學生：（過了一會兒，有孩子舉手回答）是的，如果我 是辛黛瑞拉的後媽，我也會阻止她去參加王子的舞會。

老師：為什麼？

學生：因為，因為我愛自己的女兒，我希望自己的女兒成為王后?

老師：是的，所以，我們看到的後媽好像都是不好的人，她們只是對別人不夠好，可是她們對自己的孩子卻很好，你們明白了嗎？她們不是壞人，只是她們還不能夠像愛自己的孩子一樣去愛其他的孩子。

孩子們，下一個問題：辛黛瑞拉的後媽不讓她去參加王子的舞會，甚至把門鎖起來，她為什麼能夠去，而且成為舞會上最美麗的姑娘呢？

學生：因為有仙女幫助她，給她漂亮的衣服，還有把南瓜變成馬車，把狗和老鼠變成僕人。

老師：對，你們說得很好！想一想，如果辛黛瑞拉沒有得到仙女的幫助，她是不可能去參加舞會的，是不是？

學生：是的！

老師：如果狗、老鼠都不願意幫助她，她可能在最後的時刻成功地跑回家嗎？

學生：不會，那樣她就可以成功地嚇到王子了。（全班再次大笑）

老師：雖然辛黛瑞拉有仙女幫助她，但是，光有仙女的幫助還不夠。所以，孩子們，無論走到哪裏，我們都是需要朋友的。我們的朋友不一定是仙女，但是，我們需要他們，我也希望你們有很多很多的朋友。

下面，請你們想一想，如果辛黛瑞拉因為後媽不願意她參加舞會就放棄了機會，她可能成為王子的新娘嗎？

學生：不會！那樣的話，她就不會到舞會上，不會被王子遇到，認識和愛上她了。
老師：對極了！如果辛黛瑞拉不想參加舞會，就是她的後媽沒有阻止，甚至支持她去，也是沒有用的，是誰決定她要去參加王子的舞會？

學生：她自己。

老師：所以，孩子們，就是辛黛瑞拉沒有媽媽愛她，她的後媽不愛她，這也不能夠讓她不愛自己。就是因為她愛自己，她才可能去尋找自己希望得到的東西。如果你們當中有人覺得沒有人愛，或者像辛黛瑞拉一樣有一個不愛她的後媽，你們要怎麼樣？

學生：要愛自己！

老師：對，沒有一個人可以阻止你愛自己，如果你覺得別人不夠愛你，你要加倍地愛自己；如果別人沒有給你機會，你應該加倍地給自己機會；如果你們真的愛自己，就會為自己找到自己需要的東西，沒有人可以阻止辛黛瑞拉參加王子的舞會，沒有人可以阻止辛黛瑞拉當上王后，除了她自己。對不對？

學生：是的！！！

老師：最後一個問題，這個故事有什麼不合理的地方？

學生：（過了好一會）午夜12點以後所有的東西都要變回原樣，可是，辛黛瑞拉的水晶鞋沒有變回去。

老師：天哪，你們太棒了！你們看，就是偉大的作家也有出錯的時候，所以，出錯不是什麼可怕的事情。我擔保，如果你們當中誰將來要當作家，一定比這個作家更棒！你們相信嗎？

孩子們歡呼雀躍。

haha...SUNDAY!!!
it's a church but i end up going to work in the morning..
so i miss out the Sunday service...:(

anyway..there's something i wanna share is about God's blessing..
it's like pouring upon me overloading!!
i was praying to have another kind of job a few months ago i think..
as my current job is too comfort..
im in my comfort Zone....
pay is not that high (as i deserve a higher pay...i think)
and the environment is not that good i think...
it seems easy and free and happy working there..
but thing is not the way u see...
people just doesn't care...
u'll see half of the real side of the world here...^^
i've seen a lot...

anyway...i got another job in the museum as everyone knows!!!
and my casual job as a barista in Zetland is actually asking me to work more for them..,
to be a part time worker i think...
it's like double blessing !!!
but i still haven't say YES yet cause i still haven't decide yet...

anyway.. today we got a worship session in The Brigades service..
everyone is making a circle and start to worship God..
i don't know why i got this sad feeling about my pass...
about my ex- girlfriend that's standing beside me at that time...
and then something tells me that's a chance to pray for her..
maybe the last chance cause she is going back to her country for good soon...
so i went forward to pray for her...
i wasn't speaking clearly cause i emotion was unstable....
and she don really hears me too cause everyone were worshiping at the same time..

alright...this is the interesting part...
ko daniel or daniel (as i call him daniel not ko daniel)
came to me and start praying for me..
one hand is on top of my head and the other on my left chest(heart)
and i can feel the power come right through the both hands!!
i tears grumbling down non-stop!!
i can totally feel He is speaking through daniel to me.
and u know what...
my whole part of my head is numb after that..
SERIOUSLY!!!
unbelievable...
and my eyes were like rabbits!!
red and swallow a bit...
i actually went 3 times to the toilet to check my eyes...
it's kind of embarrassing!!

anyway...we went norita to have some Sunday thingy
as we canceled out Sunday Tea Party due to CEO Adit is not coming..
and also one of our member fanny okunuyu is cpek at home i think..

ting dong ting dong...
the time strikes 2...
it's time to bed!!
i can't sleep after 2....
it's my rules!!
night peoples!!!
i love you!!!^^
GBu..
sweet dreams!!

u know nana used to say something about love...
it's like when u say 'I love you'
it means a lot ...
it's not like just a simply an 'I love you"
it's like you are ready to give your EVERYTHING to the one you love.

do you love me?

maybe you were worries about your future...
our future if we can go for a good life....
don worry about future.
who's knows what will happen in the future??
maybe i'll be rich maybe i'll be poor...
if im poor....
do you mind to go for a simple life with me?
and who cares about others??
i just wanna know...do u love me...

u know if we broke up and we're closing the door for us being together..
y we're doing this??
can you give me a second chance??
let's go for long distance...
let's do whatever we can....to stay together..

i knew we did something wrong...
we were wasting our time...
we were doing wrong things...
we were plaanning wrong things..
maybe that's the way God remind us...
to let us go on the right path...
cause he knew we are not on the right way.
i dont know cause i am not Him...
all i know if we are giving up..
this will be a very sad story...

there's 2 options...
1. let go on together and face everything together..
parents problem...
where to live..
what we will be...
God got plan for us..remember??

2. we give up each other and forget EVERYTHING!!!
everything about me...you have to COMPLETELY forget!!

if we keep like what we did now...
that's only sore in out hearts..pain...sad...tears...
and i tell you..this hurt will follow you the rest of your life!!
can u forget me??

i cant forget u..hahahaha...
senang ada kamu!!^^

hey peeps!! it's The Brigades Cup today!!
everything goes ...uhhhhhh.......
ALRIGHT...
ok...i'll tell you people what is The Brigades Cup
it's like a futsal , badminton and basketball competition.
i think futsal is going ok...
girls basketball i think they got a lot of injuries!!
and they are elbowing each other..:(
boys basketballs is not really ok cause the rules and timing thingy makes them not really satisfied.
so they're like STOP the time STOP the time...><
kinda pressure but we still keep our thing going...
hope they're ok...
next year we will do it BETTER i promise...

hmm...mood swing??or that's call jealousy??
maybe is really tiring so i am like can't control my mood...
satan lagi mencaburi!!
i hate this feeling...
but God will heal!!
*doa*
amin!!

nothing much i going to write...
night guys..
GB.

wake up in the morning fixing my tax thingy BUT!!
don't know what is the notice of assessment (NOA) number..
so.......end up didn't do it.
now i am doing it as well...trying to find out what is that...
AARrrggghhhhhhh.......

but my body is like telling me..
PLEASE HAVE A REST!!!
cause i am really tired...
still can be awake but i think is cause of 4 days gym in a row...
makes me feel SICK!!!
AARrrggghhhhhhh.........

2 days to go to The Brigades Cup!!!OMGosh..
still a little bit confused!! i am one of the people in charge!!
AARrrggghhhhhhh......
scary!!

today...i heard Sissy said...
she is CONFIRMED that she is going back for good.
and i don't know anything about it...
hmmm..........aixxx....
AARrrggghhhhhhh........

and today is the 1st day of the 'RETURN" of the southern Life Group.
whoohoooo....
my twin 'brother' is the group leader!!
he is doing good so far!!
hope he willl keep it up!!
AARrrggghhhhhhh...........
something goes wrong in my thinking...
feeling a bit bad....

hope tomorrow is a better day!!!
not a AARrrggghhhhhhh day like today...
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its. (Matthew 6:34)

good night guys..
sweet dreams...
cold night tonight...
more blankets please...
GBU

hellow peeps!!
cold,cloudy,moist and rainy day!!
but...it was totally opposite from my day today!!
like i said before..i got a new job in the museum..

and this is my 1st day to work!!
i see my 'people in charge'
his name is Matt Lee...(banci)
Lee as he got an Asian background.(obviously his daddy is Asians)
he is good..he brings me around to know what the museum looks like..
so it's quite fun..
i went to the warship called the DESTROYER
and the submarines too...COOL EYY!!
he is very nice BUT...
he wants we(the staff) to speak 100% correct English.
so if there's some wrong pronunciation, or grammar,
he will correct it on the spot!
that's a good thing so i can improve my English.

and there another workers.
his name is Knut. (banci too)
very hard to pronounce?(for Asian people)
it goes this way...CUR...NERT!!!
very nice guy as well...
a little chubby with some Turkish accent.
teaches me a lot too and his favorite phrase is...
" don worry, everyone make mistakes, me did it, Cathy (one of the worker) did it, Matt did it"
hahaha...he says like every time he teaches me something.

another guys i meet is Ervin. he is in the tickets sections.
Matt and Knut said he is a weird guy...
i dont know cause i am still New...

AND AND AND AND....the good part is here...
i got a good pay there...
and that's include 3 breaks.
morning coffee(11 a.m.)
Lunch (around 1)
afternoon tea ( 3p.m.)
and they are paid!!whooohoooo!!!!

hope i can work in this job for a longer time cause if i am in some wall and tile course..
those that can let me stay here and got PR,
i cant take this job ..T.T
that's a very sad thing .

anyway...i had a good day.
imy.night peeps.
sweet dreams..^^
GBU

it was a sunny day!!
a very good day...
but i had a bad starting..
a very sad message...
anyway....i got breakkie!! with Her...^^
CONGEE!!!it was good!! then went to work!!
my friend cook me mutton!!
u know mutton??goat!!
hahahaa...very nice!!i ate it with bread and 4 eggs....scrambled!!
like my usual breakfast!!
and then i had my 1st milkshake after one month..
since i got my stupid cough...
it's my laz day working so i just don care about my cough!!
chocolate milkshake with MALT!!!!
YUMMMM!!!!
and the whole day i was hitting flies...
no customers at all...

was quiet...went home earlier...
but not my home...
my 'friend''s..
had some desert and more deserts!!!hahahha..
very nice..
but it's too sweet i guess...have to stop going too sweet...
maybe half way sweet??
'diabetes' comes, trouble comes!!
anyway...i don mind eating desserts everyday...
*closing my mouth smiling*

anyway...
dear reader,
i always wanna tell u EVERYTHING........
i want u to be the 1st to know...
but u have to check my blog EVERY single day...
u'll miss out a lot!!^^
it's kinda late now...
sleep tight!!^^
night...GBU

i got a very weird dream today!!
i saw some boobies!!hahaha.....
anyway...nothing special today!!
many things to do at work...
have to do most of the cutting...
tiring.....
going back really soon....
9 more days??
should i be sad??
or happy??
i am totally confused!!
haix....

ooohhh....ohhhh....ooohhhh....
there's a phrase i got from my blackberry group..
wanna share...^^
it's in Indonesia though..
"1 hal yang bisa membuat HANCUR adalah PUTUS ASA...."
so guys....don ever ever give up things easily..
u'll break something!!

alright guys...hope tomorrow is a great day for me...
AMEN to that..^^
GBu guys...
night and sweet dreams..

rainy day.
and cloudy day...
is that how i feel??hahaha....
hmm....
that feeling is still not stable yet i think...
but i'm trying to ignore EVERYTHING!!
hahaha...not only to make myself feels better..
maybe to everyone too...^^
hope it does..

anyway...it's my 2nd time playing drum in the church PW!!
so disappointed to myself....
1st thing that the earphone is so loud...
and everything is like too noisy and i'm like hear nothing at all
maybe that's y things go wrong...
2nd thing is maybe i am still nervous..
3rd thing is i might need more practice before i perform...
i don want this kinda thing to happen again...
so.....hope next time i got more time to practice and learn more things..^^

and also 4th time playing in the youth service.
totally goes wrong.....
dump dump!!!><
until now my head still got some BEATs going..
BOOP BOOP BOOP!!!!

anyway...someone told me...
"who cares if u play it wrong...as long as u ENJOY,
u're not playing for them.....enjoy your play!!"
that's a good thing...if i really enjoy...i'll play well...
like when i practice..^^

haix.....i don't know what should i do...
"seeee-tress"

anyway...night guys...
GBu all...

HAH!!!!
today is a tiring day!!
went work in the morning then continue drum practice,
after that had a meeting,
it's not the end!!
continue drum practice again...

very happy everyone is like saying...
some say i play like my teacher!!
*big head*
whoohooo....u play very well...
improve a lot!!!
but still i think i got a lot a lot a lot a lot to go!!

had a dinner with The Brigades..(my youth group)
cause Pauline is going...T.T
she is one of the loudest of all!!
kinda miss her voice!!already!!
safe trip PAU PAU!!!

many laughter today!!
too bad my cough doesn't allow to to do too much laughing...
so some of the time i just ignore everyone
and day dreaming...><

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha..hope everything will go great and i can wake up tomorrow!!!
ahahaha....
GB everyone....
night!! sweet dreams...
xoxoxo
XxXxX
God loves u all!!

dear sky,

are you ok??u're raining??
something happen??please let me know..^^

your sincerely,
Bad Boy

today is not that good...
everything i planned is not going!
not really everything...90% maybe..
makes me kinda down...
and worried..hahaha...

anyway...i made my 1st tiramisu ...
haven't try it yet...hope it will be good..^^
my housemate tried and they said not sweet enough...><
and the thing is a bit hard...
anyway..i'll try it tomorrow cause i brushed my teeth.

night guys.
GB.

*listening ku dibri kuasa*
is a song i learn today!!
the druming part i mean....
like it really much and it is a tough song to play!!
working hard on it!!
still i will work really hard for it...

learnt to read some music notes too!!
some new symbols represent like
-->D.S.al Coda
--> to Coda
-->Fine.

by the way,
nice day today!!! sun SHINE!!!
it's like me me!!
super hyper active today!!don't know y...
work like ant!!hahaha....
let me think of a song...*shine like a star*
""we will shine for YOU""

and got a conformation to start work next wednesday in the museum!!
whoohoo....

and had a really nice dinner cook by my SHI MU!!
baked chicken with some orange skin flavour,
cheese baked potato with cream,
refreshing orange dressing salad
and the last one is orange and poppy seeds cheese cake...
whoooo!!!!amazing!!

but inside me still doesn't feel that good...
in between those happy and active hours....
the screwing still goes on..
every time it goes through my mind..
it's like comes every couple hour...
there's just someone mentioning something..
then it links my mind to the unhappy side...

anyway...thanks God giving me a happy day today..
even though i was late got work...hahaha...
i really enjoy my day today!!
give thanks!!^^

GB everyone ....
have a night sleep..^^

dear sky,
you are cloudy... and cold....
feels like raining...
but you were like holding it really really hard to stop it to fall...
are you alright??if u want to rain...
just give it a go..^^
rain like cats and dogs!!!
whoohooooooo.................

your sincerely,
Bad Boy!!

hahaha...that's the weather report of the day...
it was a really cloudy and make people sleepy...
anyway...i start mine with a really bright morning..
we had a really good breakfast!!
Scottish Breakie...with my lovely capppa...
bet u haven't heard it before.
it's kinda oily but it was good!!

then i head to work...
and i was told to go for an trail to work in the
"Australian National Maritime Museum."
and then i go to find an agent to ask for my school thingy!!
but she left!!
go school and it was like usual....
go into the class...
the teacher was like bla bla bla...*speaking his Bangladesh English*
i bet only the Indians in the class understand it..
everyone is like don't even bring the notes...

after school...i go MOVIE!!!
cause it's Tuesday...cheap movie!!
we watched the rise of the planet of the APE!!!
hooo hooo hoooo....
.
"Ceacer Is HOME"
that's the movie's last talk...
is it the word ''talk''??
or ''speech''??

anyway...went home and now going to gym!!^^
sleep earlier guys!!
night.
GBU

hi peeps...
skipped for some days didn't blog...
my blogging everyday plan had FAILED!!!
hahaha....nothing much to talk about...
a tiring day...but had a very full dinner..
hurstville Japanese shop.and it was free!!
thanks God.^^

one more thing before i 'hand' off to go for my presentation and report that i need to pass up on monday...(2 more days)
me and my housemates and cousins and also sister....were talking y are we so skinny...
i mean y i am so skinny...
i am wondering too...cause i ate a lot and not diet-ing anymore....
not controlling at all!!
my cousin said maybe i am sad or stress...too much thinking??
maybe??
and i just didn't realize??
i don't know..
don wanna get fat too...^^

hope everything will be fine....
God Bless me....
and wish me luck on my presentation and future!!
night guys.

hi peeps!!
this morning wake up and go work!!
* fast forward!!*
my zoo buddies come for a lunch with me...hahaha....
it was a bit late...and i was very really hungry..hahaha...
was tiny little mad...but they are so good...bought me lunch so i am like feeling bad if i get mad at them...hahaha...
they were talking but i have to go back to work after eating..
so i missed out what they are talking about...
OPS!!!!!!!!
i just realise...i didnt pay them $$
hahaha.....anyway...
i went school after work and we had a walk together.
then i decide to invite them to go my house to have dinner as i am cooking pasta...
school was boring...half way through i went off to coles and get some stuff for cooking.
everyone seems happy eating....
sent everyone home..
but i got something i didn't expect...
i hope that moment wont go away....
BUT!!!
is it good??
just wondering y this happen...
izzit ppl think i cry in the bus??
anyway...imy.
ooooooooo
GB...night.

yellow...wassup new york!!
hahaha...woke up LATE today...
suppose to start working at 8a.m. and i wake up at 8.25 a.m.
wake up changed pee brush my teeth and ZOOM!!!straight to work...
while on the way to work...was wondering "y there's no one called"
cause normally someone will give me a morning call if i am late...
when i reach my work place...there's someone starting my shift and my boss actually tell me i started at 10a.m.....was relief and half awake condition...i start working at 9 a.m.
work was super quiet...every second is like years!!was torturing...

after work...my work mate bought a VOKDA cause it was on sales...we end up drinking after work..
1st drink : pineapple juice + vodka...= not really good
2nd drink : vodka + V = nice!!
just got 2 drink..i think it was a bit strong so feeling like floating in the air while i walk..hahaha..
after the 2 drink i just realize my school is over.
*shake head* what happen to me...!!

was gonna go gym after the drink...
but my friends were pulling me...
LUKE LUKE LUKE...DONT GO!!
so had a slice of pizza in chirntis...an Italian restaurant...
was good....*thumbs up*
after everything then i go gym...it's already 815p.m.
meet my sister in the gym and i start my abs exercise.....
after 5minutes my sister told me she's going home...
don feel like walking home alone..so....
we go home together!!^^
and my sister cooked dinner for me..^^
AWWW...what a good sister...and she actually clean it up for me as well...^^
my work is only book some flight ticket for me and my sister.
browsing and listening to some songs...^^

actually while i am drinking, i was text-ing with drum friend.
was about to ask his free time for our next drum practice.
he is like keep on giving me an unconfirmed answer and make me a bit fed up.
and he sounds like our teacher is focusing on me and i got all the practical while he always got the theory only.
i think i was drunk...and i am contradicting myself.but did i?i don even know what i said.
anyway..i do feel bad for him cause i do got the practical all the time cause i've been rooster to performed.
that's y...><

one more thing to say today....hahaha...
my friends was sharing about his break up with his gf.
the things he said is like making me to remind of my ex gf too...
while he said "the small little things that she do, how she cares, the way she talk to me..things like that makes me remind of her"
hmm..........................
but my break up is different with his...they end up hate each other but i didn't...
but i am just wondering..
the one that dump and the one being dump got the same feeling?
from what they think...the one that dump still will be sad..but they will forget faster...
cause they were kinda of 'prepared'.....
but i did not totally agree..^^

suddenlly feels like i am writing too much...am i??
maybe...idk...
anyway...good night readers!!
GB.

hello peeps!!!

tiring day....once i step into the house..the girls of the house start complaining the weather....
WHY IT'S SO HOT!!!!i mean it not suppose to be 20C on winter!!
i think Mother Earth is giving us warning!!!
start to recycle and got some plants people.....hahaha...

anyway..this is my day...
got an express gym this morning...hahaha...
actually this is the plan....
wake up on 6.30 a.m. clean up and breakfast and 7.30 a.m. go gym with sissy
BUT..it's hard to move out of my comfort zone...reluctant to wake up...the nice electric blanket with my double blanket (sister and mine) + my new spring bed from Mr.T...hahaha...
on the other side...sissy got the same problem...i reckon she got double blanket too...end up i got a express gym and sissy no gym..
X X X....*shake head* not good not good...need more commitment!!
anyway...work and hand washed my beanie and shirts then meet up with my ZOO BUDDIES!!
went karaoke and skipped my class...*shake head* again....need more discipline...hahaha...
while we were singing....they start saying i am crying...><
maybe just yawning + my flu = fake cry...
but actually those songs do touched my feelings...hahaha...
had some talk while dinner after karaoke...
ngap ngap ngap ngap....a lot of talking...but not me...hahaha...
because...as usual...i am the listener...they got like millions of stories to tell and i am like dorri...
u guys know dorri??the fish...forgetfull fish in 'the finding nemo'
once i sleep..the next day i forget everything...so no stories from me...
before i 'hands' off...check this out guys....











this is our group's ............phrase??
or slogan???
i dont know that word...hahahha....
anyway...this is design from Acit!! one from our Zoo group!!

hmm...heart talk now....
feeling a bit to the alone side again...
hahaha...it's kinda sad because it's like....
wanna tell someone what i am doing now...
but there's no one to tell...
like what i used to do...><
maybe i'll used to it again soon...
time heals...
and God heals...
night guys...NIGHT..^^

today is a GREAT day..cause it's my 1st time playing drum in the church!!
everyone is like saying...OH! Luke..u played VERY GOOD!!
MAEN LAGI YA NEXT TIME!!
GOOD JOB!!
hahahaha...but u know...it's just so so...cause i missed a lot of things..and a lot of mistake!!
there's a huge space for me to improve.^^
after that!!something greater happened!!!
i got a TB practice with like half of the Brigades.
everyone is like looking at me...
it's kind of pressure but when they were clappin' hands it feels like...FAMILY!!
those cheering was very good!!very supportive!!THANKS GUYS!!
but 2 things make me feel uncomfortable.
he is still looks unhappy as i got another drum lesson.
the look in his eyes makes me feels bad.
the look in her eyes too.haha...that dont know how to describe look.
makes me remind about the past!hahaha..
anyway.....
one more GREAT thing is i went ngafe with my zoo buddies!!!
discussing things!!!hope this happen all the time!!hahaha...it make us know more thing from each other!!whooohooo!!!!
and after everything....i end up missed my bus and reach home about 12.30 a.m. T.T
anyway...that's what happen today!!it was a busy and tiring day!!
night guys...GB!!

knock knock knock!!!
hi readers!!maybe there's no more readers here.since i am so so so lazy to write and spend time on this blog.
notice my writing skills are not really doing good.so...from now on, i have to write more!!i mean type.
so...I will update u guys what's happening in my life since i am missing for a long time.
like always, i go work, go school, and gym almost everyday until i went church last JULY??
can't really remember but around that time. learn heaps of things in life and guys, I'm a junior Christ now!! got many brothers and sisters there.
life is going up and down, many things need to be done.
many decisions need to be made!!
relationships...was in a relationship last November but things just not going good. or i can say i am not ready for a serious relationships yet..reluctantly...*priak* red line break between me and she.
family is doing good.brother is getting married.sister got permanent resident in Australia.everyone is in the pink of health!! Amen!!
before i 'hands' off, hope everyone know what they wanna do in the future, study hard, appreciate everyone around them and be happy.
see you !